1st to the 24th

hah! i haven’t logged in in nearly a month.
i don’t feel bad though. i never decided (with gusto) that i really was going to.  journaling and mediation have been far more consistent. and this is a form of journaling. so perhaps the bigger question here is why blog.

chasey camaraderie had a lot to do with it but not all.  let’s revisit this. in the meantime–guilt free baby! though clearly i’m concerned about it 😂

cellie

looked into my phone bill today.
only $383.28 left until my phone is paid off.

that’s $47.91 that will come back to once i have that baby in teh grave.
shoutout taking off the case, getting a few scratches, and discouraging myself from trading it in for a new one. if i kept the case on, my phone would be scratch free, and i’d have already sent it back for the “latest”

questions…

courtesy of Jerry Colonna via Tim Ferriss.


i already do: gratitude, classic diary “x, y, and z happened”, and exploring a particular topic or drama i’m focused on. that said the techniques below will be SUPRA helpful going forward:

“right now i’m feeling………………”

&

honor the different voices/selves in my mind. if it helps use different color ink. as they yell and whisper, give each of them screen time.


i also received some powerful QUESTIONS that will definitely prove helpful when suffering.

also good for thinking, meditating, and journaling. shit…questions i should share with others

  • how have i been complicit in creating the conditions i say i don’t want?(COMPLICIT not RESPONSIBLE. there’s a difference. complicit as in what CONTRIBUTION did i have??)
  • what am i not saying that needs to be said?
  • what am i saying that’s not being heard?
  • what’s being said that i’m not hearing?

 

these are all clearly classic therapy tools but they’re classic tools a reason. their dope.

thank you universe.

yay more small changes to make ^_^

  • cook more at home
  • look into reducing my phone bill via family plan or by switching companies
  • switch to uhh…. chipped versions of certain pricey programs
  • let sam harris know i need that freebie on his app–amazing he even has this option
  • track food expenses for a week
  • cancel boomerang, the email one not the insta one you crazies!
  • play with diff parts of my budget, imagine different futures and stay inspired
  • i get two checks a month from my salary gig. aim to get a “third” from freelance
  • all the money i save from making different choices should go to debt repayment not more spending

 

thankie qaz!

problems

mark manson would say, “what are the problems you want?” often we play the movie of what we want in our heads but do so absent all the problems that come with said dream.  instead reflect on the problems i’d most enjoy having…

clawing.

nearly divested i grab hold of just enough. thanks for being consistent chase. zoo as well. i’ll return the favor shortly.

 

i love u all.

easy

that’s the problem.
i always want it too easy.

now i feel the price of that.

 think past short term gratification.

that’s the only way i’ll be satisfied now.

darn it!

i missed one. pure memory. >_<

i have a daily alarm set at 2200 to check but i suppose an am reminder would do some good as well. done!

 

you almost escaped…

you almost got away, you sly post you.
i wrote more on my goals but i’m not all the way there…

i linked w/ tony robbins and decided they should be SMART goals: specific. measurable. attainable. realistic. time-frame.

i have two so far….moar soon. issa process. and i’ll keep chipping away 😊